Thoughts about
the Sentence: ÒI Always Remain Relaxed and Thereby Gain Might over MyselfÓ
Some time ago, I
studied in BillyÕs book, ÓMeditation aus klarer SichtÒ (free translation
ÓMeditation from Clear VisibilityÓ, in German only), the 77 sentences in the
chapter ÓMeditative Grundlage zur positiven BewusstseinshaltungÓ (Meditative
Basis for a Positive Attitude of Consciousness), in order to jot down a few
that would be quite appropriate for my short meditations. I read them through,
point by point, and noted the ones most appropriate for me at the time Ð each
on a small slip of paper. Even if my genes are still far from being inseminated
with this valuable ability, the meaning of the sentences is in principle clear
to me. Once I finished jotting them down and checked them over again, my
thoughts got stuck at point 73. That sentence reads as follows:
73. Stets bleibe ich
entspannt und gewinne dadurch Macht Ÿber mich selbst.
73. I always remain
relaxed and thereby gain might over myself.
When first reading this,
it is naturally clear what it means Ð at least we think so. But is that really
true? All sentences deserve to be thought over intensively, but this one most
certainly does. To begin with, every single one of the 77 sentences Ð or the
ones you have chosen Ð should be adopted exactly as Billy recorded it (in
German), in order for you to assimilate the code. This code takes effect, as
soon as the sentences are read or heard. It affects everything in the human
being that functions impulsively Ð therefore all cells and consequently the
genes as well. All cells and in fact everything in the universe is built on
impulses or impulsations (= something goes in and something develops). Once we
have assimilated the sentences, as they are written in ÒMeditation aus klarer
SichtÓ, we of course must intensively think about what has been said and heard,
since that is the only way for us to activate our thoughts and feelings, which
in turn send out impulses or impulsations, which have an effect on our entire
body and impulsively influence all genes, thus altering them accordingly.
Whatever and however we think, feel and act determines impulsively the function
of our genes Ð which is also passed on to our eventual offspring.
For the
consciousness to benefit, it is therefore necessary to think about it, over and
over again, because a single string of thought is definitely not enough.
Depending on our evolutionary level, this is a life-long process of learning
and changing.
Sentence no. 73
contains two parts Ð in principle even three, if we separate 'my' and 'self',
which we do not want to do though Ð namely:
1st I
always remain relaxed 2nd and thereby
gain might over myself, |
and nevertheless
they still belong together, since the second part is the effective result of
the first part.
LetÕs take a look at
both parts in somewhat greater detail.
First part reads:
ÒI always remain relaxedÓ
That we should be
relaxed, is instinctively clear to us, because all of us notice how the body
aches and/or how thoughts and feelings are blocked, when we are not relaxed,
but I began to wonder why we gain might over ourselves in this way. What
exactly does that mean? Does it also mean that whenever we are not relaxed, but
are tense, we have no might over ourselves? It must, right?
Sometimes, it is
helpful to find synonyms for certain terms and note their possible effects on
the body and mental-block or consciousness, thoughts, feelings and psyche
(psyche = mental state of being), in order to get an even better picture. LetÕs
begin with the adjectives 'tense' and 'relaxed':
Adjective |
Possible Synonyms |
Possible Effects |
tense |
emphatic, insistent,
intensive, strained, exhausting, burdened, pressing, inflexible, stressed,
unrested greedy, impatient, prejudiced, constrained, absorbed, gripping, restless,
unbalanced, disharmonious.. |
á
Perception of intuition and inspirations of the subconsciousness and
the unconscious-forms is not possible. á
Indignant
reactions, irritability á
Blocked
thoughts and feelings á
Psychic
strain, stress symptoms á
Physical diseases á
No appropriate thinking performance regarding unknown
questions/statements of another person á
Excitement á
Intolerance,
partiality á
etc. |
relaxed |
relieved, free, slack,
unattached, unburdened, pleasant, flexible, unrestrained, rested,
unprejudiced unconstrained, patient,
perceptive, calm, balanced, harmoniousÉ |
á
Perception of intuition and inspirations of the subconsciousness and
the unconscious-forms á
Thoughts and feelings under oneÕs own control á
Physical and
psychic health á
Composure á
Able to react and think at any time á
Tolerance,
impartiality á
etc. |
Perhaps you are now
thinking that a few synonyms are a bit far-fetched, but it is always good to
think everything through and to also choose words which sound less pleasant
than 'strained'. To point out our weaknesses creates at best the motivation to
want to weed them out and change them to the contrary. Create a mental picture
of situations, in which you were tense and how this manifested itself. In doing
this, it is also important to know, who effectively wielded the might over you
Ð the situation or you.
Here are a few
negative examples:
You are seething
with anger for some reason or another. Through the anger, your thoughts and
feelings are in a state of turmoil and are 'dancing' in a consciousness-form,
which has more to do with vengeance, offensiveness and retaliation than with
harmony, equanimity and love. Everything that comes out of your mouth or that
you put down on paper in such a moment reflects your state. The anger has you
under control. If you were to read or hear it later, shame would probably arise
Ð or most certainly should.
Or you are in a
hurry to get to work, however you cannot manage to do one thing after another
in a composed manner, but rush about and even drop something while doing so,
pack all your bits and pieces together Ð and off you go. Once you arrive at
work, you notice that you have forgotten your entry-badge. Now you remember
that the jacket you wore the day before had flashed across your mind, but you
paid it no heed and even pressed yourself on to get away. The whole point is,
your badge was namely in that jacket. An inspiration was about to arise to draw
your attention to this, since your unconscious-forms continue to work, even if
you are inattentive. In general, inspirations of the subconsciousness are not
perceived consciously, even not in a rudimentary form. They get 'stuck' in the
unconscious of the consciousness or the unconscious of the memory Ð or wherever
the information is hidden Ð because we are constantly absorbed in thought with
something (unnecessary). There are still dozens of examples that could be
listed here, but IÕll leave that up to you and your own fantasy and powers of
recollection.
In order to
balance things out though, here are two positive examples:
You have to go to a
meeting (conference) that you were unable to prepare for. Instead of becoming
tense with anxiety, because you do not want to expose yourself, you go there
and completely relaxed you listen to what the others have to say and ask. Because
of your relaxed state, you have the situation fully under control and things
occur to you that you otherwise would never have thought of. Due to your
composure and relaxed nature, you were sensitive to non-physical
fine-structured substance, which is absolutely necessary to perceive
inspirations of the subconsciousness or values from the unconscious-forms in
the consciousness Ð and it is also helpful when accessing the memory. You are
certainly very familiar with this, because the strongest notions often come to
mind while musing in the bathtub or while taking a leisurely stroll. Also
'forgotten' names occur to us again, when we let go and discontinue our active
search for them. When I was about 10 years old, we had to be vaccinated against
polio (infantile paralysis) in primary school. That meant getting a shot in the
back. All the ones, who came before me, were terribly frightened and those who
were already vaccinated were complaining about the pain. I thought if I make
myself completely loose and think about something altogether different, I wonÕt
feel a thing. And thatÕs exactly how it was.
We know
instinctively that to be tense or under stress or in a rush has negative
effects on us and for us and that because of this we cannot react the way we
should or actually want to Ð which is namely with composure and in a creational
sense for the respective situation. Only when we remain in the Òcalm centreÓ
and are not constantly engaged in thought somewhere, are we balanced, open and
perceptive.
The second part
reads: ÒÉ and thereby gain might over myself (= me self)Ó
What does it
actually mean to gain 'might over oneself'? What or who is the 'me' and what is
the 'self'? What (factors) of the human being belongs to the self? What do we
mean, when we say: ÒIt was I myself (= me self)?Ó Is 'me' and self the same as
the self or the Ego? Or is it the personality? Or is it both? Is it a good
definition of yourself, when you draw up a curriculum vitae (CV), in which you
write, what your name is, when and where you were born, what marital status you
have, whether or not you have children, how good you were at work and what type
of education and occupational experience you have and what extra-professional
activities and sport activities you enjoy? I have searched in many books for
the term, 'self', such as e.g. in John C. EcclesÕ book, ÒHow the Self Controls
Its BrainÓ. The expression, 'self', can be found there loads of times, but he
is unable to really say what is meant by this. ItÕs just the same with other
scientists who dare to attempt a description of the human brain.
Before we consult
the Spiritual Teaching for advice, I will tell you, in brief, what the lexicon
has to say about the self. Since I personally do not own an English
psychological lexicon, I will quote a passage from the Spiritual Teaching,
namely from Spirit-Lesson no. 144, chapter, ÒSource of Dreams,
Consciousness-Conscious/Subconsciousness-Unconscious/Subconscious-FormsÓ. Billy
inserted a lexicon-definition there about the self. I wonÕt copy it allÑit
would be far too longÑonly the first few lines:
Self, a hypothetical construct used in modern psychology in different
meanings; the self in this sense does not describe a psychological authority
but is an expression of the fact, that the subject itself becomes conscious
of itself and at the same time the object of itself, and hence it is also an
expression for the continuity of the personality. The term is 1) a name for
the system of the conscious and unconscious knowledge of a person about who
he believes he is, with respect to the areas of his own body (body-self), or
his own actions (action-self), relations (relation-self) and value systems
(É) Ð 2) a name for the coordinated control of these knowledge-processes,
also often called 'ego' (as by Sigmund FREUD), etc. |
You notice here
again, this is but 'beating around the bush' without really explaining
anything. The self is obviously a hypothetical construct. Translated into
normal language, this means: the self is a constructive idea used to help describe
things or characteristics, which are not concretely observable, but merely
inferable from what is observed.
The self is
certainly not an organ, just as the "I"/Ego is not; instead, certain
impulses/impulsations in a specific frequency range define the self and the
"I"/Ego as well as the other consciousness-block-programs/-processes,
otherwise it would be impossible for the overall-consciousness-block to build
these in the death-life for the consciousness-block. Furthermore, organs are
also 'only' made of impulses, simply in a more compact form.
In the book,
ÒWiedergeburt, Leben, Sterben, Tod und TrauerÓ (ÒReincarnation, Life, Dying,
Death and MourningÓ, in German only, FIGU Wassermannzeit-Verlag, CH-8495
SchmidrŸti), from page 146 to 148, under the title, ÒBeschaffenheit des
Bewusstseins, der Persšnlichkeit und des Ich resp. EgoÓ (ÒStructure of the
Consciousness, the Personality and the 'I' or EgoÓ), Ð or in the corresponding
Spirit-Lesson Ð there is a lengthier discourse from which I intend to quote only
a few sentences. I recommend though that you read the entire chapter or Ð
better yet Ð the entire book again. Billy writes there:
ÓThe consciousness is equivalent to the personality
in which the 'I' or Ego is equally imbedded. Consciousness and personality
are one, whereby a splitting however is to be made in a way that the
consciousness in itself and as the first part must be regarded as the factor
that builds the block comprising the overall content, in which all
idea-related, thought-related, psychic, emotional, spiritual- and
feeling-related effects are lived through (= experienced)É If a unity of
consciousness is given, whose content is considered by the
consciousness-carrier as its own property, it then being conscious of itself
and according to its particular nature and its value becomes
self-consciousness. ... As the second part
of the consciousness, the personality-factor comes into play, which emerges
from the self-conscious-state of the consciousness. In other words, this term
means the quality of being a person in the sense that the human being himself
or herself is conscious, that he or she is precisely the one who he or she in
fact is and who lived shortly before the present or in past times in this or
that state, etc. and is now living into the future which he or she
consciously formes according to his or her volition. É The 'I' or Ego,
which is imbedded in the personality and therefore also in the consciousness,
means 'my-being-here' or 'my existence' or the 'I am'. É The nature of the
'I' or Ego is to receive and assimilate the 'influences' that infiltrate it
through the unconscious preceding it, which is also called the pre-conscious.
É The consciousness
itself provides the 'I'/Ego with guidelines, whereby it is practically only
an executor of the consciousness or a fulfiller of the consciousness. É Effectively, the
consciousness centre (= central processor of the consciousness) is the actual
basis and cause of the 'I'/Ego-consciousness or the central 'I'/Ego, thatÕs
why it is also called the 'higher-'I'/Ego' or the 'higher-self'.Ó |
We cannot read this
often enough in order to understand and grasp as far as we can what has been
said. It is often forgotten that the consciousness is the pivotal factor of
power for growth and evolution, even when the kick/impetus for this comes from
the unconsciousness as an inspiration. The material consciousness, thoughts,
feelings, psyche, "I"/Ego, personality, character, memory of the
consciousness, subconsciousness and memory of the subconsciousness are indeed
individual programmes/processes, but they are imbedded in the
consciousness-block, which is why everything in principle is a unity and cannot
really be separated from each other. Everything is methodically arranged in an
interactive system Ð just like a computer with its operating system and the
diverse programmes/processes and connected devices. For example, without the
operating system Windows, the Microsoft Office products do not really function;
they are interdependent. The operating system is the software of a computer
which is what enables, operates, controls and monitors the work with the data
processor in the first place through the definition of logical devices, data
structures (files) and programmes/processes. So there must definitely be an operating
system available, so the hardware can be used for any applications/programmes.
ItÕs also that way in our brain and our body. The mental-block, which together
with the consciousness harbours and nurtures our thoughts and feelings and
thereby forms the psyche, has an influence on action (= become active, affect,
operate, behave, etc.) as well as on the individuality-block, to which the
Ego/'I', the personality, the character and the memory belong, while on the
other hand all these factors are form-giving in turn to the actions, thoughts
and feelings, and the psyche. And all of this naturally influences each and
every cell of the body as well as the cells of the organs, and these eventually
affect the psyche again. Everything rotates helically (in the form of a
spiral); one thing gives rise to another and they continue to form each other
reciprocally, and everything is made possible, directed, controlled and watched
by the consciousness Ð and the cosmic-electromagnetic life-energy is the
life-substance that animates the body via the spirit-form and the spirit-web.
(A programme is comparable to a process, meaning a concrete series of single
steps, which function according to specific rules. To become active, a
process/programme needs a processor. The operating system manages Ð among many
other functions Ð the execution of processes, and in the CPU [= Central Processing Unit; for the PC e.g. Pentium], the central processor
of a computer, the processes are executed in multi-tasking mode. More
information in the Internet.)
Destination of the
human-consciousness-evolution is to harmonize the external and internal self
with the humanÕs relatively highest possible level of the innermost, creative
self (spirit-form).
Our individual
evolutionary level is of course decisive, depending on whether or not our
predecessor-personalities Ð and now we for the ones who come after us Ð
recogniced their responsibility and evolutionised in consciousness as far as
possible in a creational sense. If not, our inner self is not congeneric
(like-natured) with the innermost self or in other words with the knowledge,
love and wisdom impulses of Creation, which flow via our spirit-form into our
subconsciousness and on into our consciousness, where we Ð upon seizing them
after they have passed through the censor Ð continue to work with them in our
thoughts and feelings and to direct our inner according to them Ð at best.
Everywhere, there is
talk about self-realisation. It then Ð out of the blue Ð no longer seems to be
a hypothetical construct. For the vast majority of humanity, this undoubtedly
means having the right to think and behave as one pleases and without having to
care for others or for the creational laws. A few examples of this include
loud-hearing of disharmonic music, feet on the seat in the train and tram,
consuming drugs, having wild parties, displaying anger, picking fights, obscene
language, venting emotions like jealousy and hate, etc., and so on and so
forth. In doing so, these human beings are even supported by a number of
psychologists, since it apparently is supposed to be healthy to scream out the
anger and rage. For these human beings, the only options are to scream it out
or to swallow it. To pull themselves together, be equanimous and not get angry
at all, is apparently not up for discussion. We know of course that the
above-mentioned behavioural patterns at most have something to do with
indecency and a lack of self-control, but there is no trace of
self-realisation. If we want to find self-realization/self-fulfilment, we must
first get to know ourselves and therefore practice self-knowledge. Prize
question: Where, in your opinion, can self-knowledge be found?
Shortly after the
beginning of the second part ÒÉand thereby gain might over myselfÓ, I mentioned
a 'curriculum vitae'. I donÕt know at this moment, whether you have ever
wondered if what we have done or do in general also appropriately defines us,
regardless of how elaborately we describe our achievements and favourite
pastimes. This is certainly not the case. First of all, we never tell
everything Ð especially not the bad things Ð and besides, it is only a
description of our material-intellectual achievements and at best of our
physical fitness. There are still so many unknown sides in us Ð which make themselves
felt occasionally Ð that we are often taken by surprise. From the Teaching of
Spirit, the Teaching of Life and the Teaching of Truth we know that the essence
of all the relative knowledge and ability of our predecessor-personalities is
stored in the memory of our subconsciousness. Do you think that to know this
essence or at least to grasp an inkling of it would advance us in consciousness
and contribute something to our self-knowledge Ð hence to the knowledge about
ourselves and who we are? If thatÕs how you think, then youÕre right. In the
Spiritual Teaching, Spirit-Lesson no. 144, on page 1777, Billy writes the
following:
ÒÉThe powers of the unconscious-forms are connected
with the powers of the subconsciousness, and the subconsciousness releases its
stored knowledge to the consciousness, which then through its own powers
translates the received impulses, information, data, ideas, explanations and
so forth and so on into action, life and activity. This also applies to
self-knowledge, which is stored in the subconsciousness and is released to
the consciousness, when the comprehensive block composed of the
consciousness, subconsciousness and unconscious forms is fully functional.
However, as long as the human being knows nothing of the content of his subconsciousness,
he will continue to lack self-knowledge, because the requisite facts for this
are only contained therein and must be released from there by the
consciousness. If that does not happen, then no self-knowledge can arise and
with it no self-realisation, albeit this very factor is among the fundamental
needs for each and every human being. É In truth this
âmirror of the soulÕ refers to the subconsciousness (= unconscious of the
subconsciousness and the subconsciousness-forms in the memory of the subconsciousness;
annotation) in which the subconscious contents of all senses, norms and
value-definition are stored, as well as the values of the conscience, the
facts of inclinations and feelings, of emotions, intentions, wishes,
expectations and attitudes as well as of the individual characteristics and
so on and so forth, which after all are the personality or the consciousness
itself. When these factors are brought out consciously or unconsciously or
through dreams, then they help to acquire a deeper self-knowledge and
self-realisation in harmony with the real self. Here real self means that the
human being is conscious/aware of himself or herself and his or her
personality, particularly in all things pertaining to the individual (=
mental-block, individuality-block and subconsciousness-block; annotation) and
to all other values, through which the essential core or the inner original
source of the person is expressed, hence the real nature of the personality
in all of its hidden and open individualities, significances, characters,
relations, forms and so forth. |
The next step is
therefore: ÒHow do I use my subconsciousness to become better acquainted with
myself and to evolutionise my inner self and feelings in a creational sense
through conscious reflection and bring the external in line with the internal?Ó
To achieve this, BillyÕs Spiritual Teaching (e.g. in Spirit-Lesson no. 159) and
the book ÒMeditation aus klarer SichtÓ is the most comprehensive source of
help. Meditation is absolutely essential. You now only have to build up the
motivation and the volition to also carry it through. Because as Billy
repeatedly says: ÒVo nŸŸt chunt nŸŸt.Ó (From nothing comes nothing.)
When you now reread
the sentence ÒI always remain relaxed and thereby gain might over myselfÓ, it
has a completely different meaning, doesnÕt it? The self is something fully
comprehensive. Not only the entire mental-block (material-consciousness,
thoughts, feelings and psyche), the individuality-block (Ego/'I', personality,
character and memory), the subconsciousness-block (material subconsciousness
including the memory) and the respective unconscious-forms belong to it, but
the self extends into our very cells. It is therefore not just a theoretical
construct, but a 'human-being-energy-impulsation-power', set up by Creation.
Mariann Uehlinger,
Switzerland
Translation: Rebecca
Walkiw, Germany and Mariann Uehlinger, Switzerland